Building her Case
She was building her case.
Soon she would be facing them.
And she wanted to make sure
that she’d have enough evidence
that she was who she said she was.
She had been working all her life.
She had a track record.
She had witnesses galore.
But you know how these things are.
They are not like you, those judges.
Those who make decisions are not among us
and they do not understand us.
They do not respect us.
They do not know us.
They do not understand the hardships we’ve grown through
or the amazing odds we’ve had to surpass to do what we have achieved.
They do not see us in our beauty.
Instead they see “the other;”
An unknown not to be trusted.
I don’t have to tell you how it is.
They minimize us.
They ask three times the documentation from us
just to give us the leftovers.
So as she prepared to be evaluated
to be given that job, that loan, that apartment, that scholarship, that title;
She went into fighting mode.
She knew this mode.
It had served her all her life
to make sure that she was given what she had earned.
She was building a case.
But inside, deep inside, a tiny tiny cry rose,
trembling in her guts
“Am I enough?”
“Is this really true?”
“Is all I’ve done enough?”
“Have I truly earned this privilege?”
And it was that cry, those questions
that she was trying to squelch
as she built a case
for those who would evaluate her.
November 7, 2014
New York, New York
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